The worst thing to ever hear is that you’ve fucked your own body up. Sure I laugh it all off and make fat jokes, but inside I’m beating the shit out of myself. How could I have been so ignorant? I’ve made myself into a joke for the public to point and laugh at. Sure no one’s perfect but I’d like to be slightly close to it. I don’t know how many times I’ve had to run to the bathroom or turn the other way this week just so people don’t see me break down and cry. I’m supposed to be the strong one. The big girl that nothing can hurt. Well today I sat down and cried on my mother’s shoulder. I haven’t done that since I was 8. I’m so tired of feeling like a failure.